>"To be perceived is very clocky; and yet we transition to be perceived. Trans people have a dysphoric relation to perception: we want and fear it at the same time. Do you think I’m hot? Please do no…"

Other Trans People Make Me Dysphoric”: Trans Assimilation and Cringe When the right deploys cringe to control trans assimilation, trans people cringe at each other. " In Ugly Feelings (2005), Sianne Ngai argued that envy is vilified because it often expresses real material differences; with dysphoria, these differences are often bodily. You look at someone who passes better than you; you want everything they have. Per Ngai, dysphoric jealousy expresses the unequal distribution of resources. The whiter and richer you are, the easier it is to transition. While HRT is covered by insurance (although getting it is still time-consuming and complex), gender-affirming surgeries must usually be paid for out of pocket; some procedures, like FFS, are priced at 35k minimum. When you envy someone’s body, you’re envious, in a very real way, of how much money they have."