>"And why is that worse than a monster truck-driving hillbilly loser? Because, unlike my Confederate friend, neither you nor I can see the racism that operates within me. I’m building an erotica…"

I saw white people everywhere, and despite knowing people of color exist, I didn’t give a second thought to people of color, even though I say I support people of color.

It’s just that this is the first time I’ve ever seen my unconscious bias so viscerally displayed. Before this, I would argue that I was not racist. But seeing this in me, the best I can offer now is that I will try not to be racist and promise to exert the energy and awareness it takes to find it in myself, and deal with it. I can no longer deny I’m not a white supremacist with white supremacist tendencies, now that I’ve seen them in myself. Maybe I didn’t iron hubby’s Klu Klux Klan outfit for the weekend picnic. Maybe I didn’t stitch Confederate flag curtains for my son’s window. But I did blindly pick people who looked like me without giving a second thought to anyone else.